Shut Up And Bleed

I’ve bled too many times for you
you’ve drained my heart dry
my poetic vampire
why do you insist on killing me so slowly?
your kiss wounds never seem to heal
but getting them didn’t hurt like this
your touches have left deep imprints only visible to me
that are constant reminders of the misery I’m drowning in
my eyes have darkened
they have become unfamiliar irises
that shed shattered tears
that taste too much like your “I Love You’s”
my pillow is tired of tasting those words
tired of being drenched in my heartache nightly
the dead stranger that stares back at me from my mirror is starting to scare me
she looks too much like the person I use to be
only colder
but her souls burns with a devastating fury
that sometimes consumes her
cripples her till the point of convulsions that shake her spirit
tears through her body
burning
I want to hate you
no better yet I want to fucking erase you
bleach my heart and mind so I can find somebody else
that can make me forget about the emptiness I feel
but in that same breathe
I don’t want anyone else
you’ve polluted my head
to the point that my dreams and nightmares cry out for you
I constantly have to remind myself to breathe
it seems pointless now
and I’m scared that my chest is going to collapse
scared that my heart has grown to heavy
and I will no longer be able to carry it
I’ve shut down completely
I no longer know me
only what I’ve become
I truly see differently now
no one will ever be good enough
no one will ever be able to understand
no one will be able to put me back together again
I’ve been shattered into too many pieces
you’ve become unknown to me
sprinkled with a faint familiarity
what happened to the person I feel in love with?
why did you take him away from me?
No longer can “I Watch Him”
cause I hate the fact that “I’m In Love With You”
And I know I use to hate her
but maybe it wasn’t the fact that “She Never Deserved You”
maybe you just didn’t know how to treat her either
Or maybe your feelings were genuine
you just didn’t know how to “Prove It”
and now she’s “Broken”
like me
again I say I’ve cried too many tears for you
bled too many times for you
took too many slash wounds on my heart from you
and you’ve only returned the favor once
you don’t talk to me
you keep telling me
I love you
I miss you
I’m sorry
but it seems like you don’t really understand what I want for you
so I’ll tell you
I just want you to hurt like me
just shut up
and bleed
for me
please...