Soldier

He’s tryna be a soldier
Tryna prove he can handle the weight of the world on his shoulders
Barricading his self with his burdens
And he tells me,
He never quite knew how to lay them down
Never knew how to place them at the feet of He
Never knew how to pray correctly
Tells me he wants to do better he just doesn’t know how
And I can almost hear the crack in his voice whisper his tears to me
And I feel like holding him
Cradling his fears
I want to be his new foundation
Or at least the cement used to fill the cracks in his old one
He’s dying for some stability
But he won’t let anyone get close enough to help him
He’s been taught that being a man means never let anyone in
Never show your weakness
And never let anyone see you cry
But his weakness is that he’s scared of being weak
And his unshed tears are drowning his soul
Weighing down his spirit
Maybe that’s why he moves so slow
Dragging his feet
And sometimes I wonder if he wishes that his heels were erasers
Wishes that he could erase the traces of his existence
If his feet could just scrape the ground hard enough
He’s tryna hold up this image
Tryna keep it picture perfect
But I wish that he would realize
Even the “Mona Lisa” had her flaws
And you can guarantee van Gogh missed a few stars
he can’t walk on water
but some times…
I wish that I could
then maybe I would finally be able to get across the moat that surrounds his heart
I just want to help
If you trust me enough to confide in me
then trust me enough to cry on me
you can’t go it alone
you can’t be the only soldier standing in the middle of a war zone
and expect to win
you’re not a one man armyI’m waiting for you to realize I’m here
you don’t have to carry the world by yourself
just look over your shoulder
I’ll be here when you have no one else left
arms spread eagle
let me bare some of your burdens
intertwine your fingers with mine
and I’ll teach you how to pray
I’m ready when you are
put your heart in my hands and I promise I’ll help you carry its melody
burry it in my soul so you’ll never have to worry about it ever going cold again
give me your fears and I’ll hide them in my womb
carry them like the children you can’t father
till you’re ready for them to be birthed
ready to watched them grow into something beautiful
Or better yet,
if I could swallow you whole and hold you in my womb
so you can start life over again
I’d do it in a heart beat
hold you in my abdomen
belly swollen with you
I’d carry you in my safe space
so you’d never have to look any further than my embrace to find safety
come to me
cause if you think you can make it on two feet
I guarantee you
you could do a lot more
on 4
let me resuscitate soul
give life back to your spirit’s lungs
breathe…
me
inhale my aura
and exhale your sorrows
I could help you fill this hollow shell that is your body
help mend your wounds
if you would just let me…
in.