Gun Shots

Cause they scores feel like gun shots
5.8, 5.9, SHOT, 6.0, 6.1, SHOT, 6.2, 6.3, SHOT, 6.4, 6. Gun Shot
Raise your score boards
let the corrosive acid that spits from that maker eat at her till her soul bleeds rivers of blue ink
the same shade her pen bleed the day she wrote her first slam piece
but she, doesn't want to slam any more
cause through your felt markers she has felt you mark her down to nothing more but a mere number
she leaves her life on stages
and gives her soul to complete strangers
blessing them with the privilege of thinking they are superior enough to judge her
and you
degrade her
making her feel like her words ain't worth a pot for you to piss in
like her words ain't worth the time it took for you to listen to what the fuck she was saying
like her words ain't worth jack squat
every time she hears your gun shots
6.5, 6.6, SHOT, 6.7, 6.8, SHOT, 6.9, 7.0, SHOT, 7.1, 7. Gun Shot
But she,
I mean I
don't give a fuck about the score no mo
don't give a fuck about the judges no mo
cause you mother fuckers can go suck on the BIC I wrote this poem with
I am the epitome of my own damn epiphany
and I don't need you judging me
so go ahead
give me a low score
and I'll tell you EXACTLY where you can put that damn board
cause you have not swam through the currents I've swam through
haven't even seen some of the things I've had to live through
I have nothing to prove to you
I now know my own self worth and it's way more than any damn 2 figure score you could give me
And I know this poem ain't exactly what you wanna hear but it's exactly what needs to be said
Cause you can believe what I'm spitting has been in every poets head at least once
And I know few poets have said what I've said and lived to slam another day
But I am no longer afraid
So I'm a go ahead and take this hold your tongue condom off cause I don't need it's protection anymore
I'm a get in this shit raw
So go ahead and try to fuck me
but I've already been train raped by your scores
and I refuse to remain your poetry whore
see I don't do this cause it's cute
I do this cause it's my stress relief despite how brief it is
I do it so I can help somebody who thought they where alone
realize they aren't they only one standing in the middle of a war zone.
I do this so I can make that one picked on out cast realize he ain't got to blow up that school,
all he got to do is pick up a pencil.
I do this so that little girl realizes that though somebody has laid their hands on her inappropriately I understand, I know how it feels to have somebody groping me in the middle of the night and though it hurts right now baby girl it'll be alright.
I do this so that one suicidal teen realizes that he ain't got to go that route,
and there's a better way out trust me
look at me and realize that I've been there
our scars
match
perfectly
I do this for everyone that some how reminds me of me
And the only one that can ever really judge me besides He,
is me
so now when your shots ring out freely all they'll sound like to me is
7.2, 7.1,
10
6.0, 6.9,
10
6.8, 6.7,
10
6.6, 6.5,
10