She Never Deserved You

She never deserved you.
Truth be told the bitch never deserved to even look at you,
she was never women enough for you
hadn't yet learned how to grow the fuck up.
Still playing little girl elementary school mind games
thinking that you were the same as all these
other lame brain ass little boys.
But you're not,
you never were.
All you were tryna do was treat her like the Queen that she could never be
cause she doesn't know how.
She could never define the word
cause she was use to all these
playa type niggas that was only interested in doing her wrong
so of course when you came along she didn't know what to do with you.
She was confused
and she only knew how to play you the way she'd been played
so at night,
I prayed for you.
In the hopes that He would help you see clearly.
But I guess it's true that love is blind
cause despite the signs,
you stayed with her…
But I was always right here.
Waiting for you to look back and see me standing here
I was the one that held you when she couldn't find the time
And when she lied to you and hurt you
you were on my phone line
It was me,
it was always me crying when you couldn't
Letting me eyes leak so yours wouldn't have to
Apologizing for her wrong
Apologizing for shit that I knew I would never do to you
I was the one,
It was me,
Shay.
It was always me opening my arms to you.
Cutting opening my heart for you so you could sleep inside it,
lay your head on it's soft bruises.
And if you asked me to
I would bleed for you .
Bleeding the ink from my pens until the wells of my mind ran dry for you
If you needed me,
I was there for you…
And you did the same for me,
when I need you
you came to me
comforted me.
But it was only…
momentary
Cause you,
would always go back to her
Even after her 1st offense
Her 2nd offense
Her 3rd
4th through 12th offense
You loved her
And I don't even know her
but I hate her.
It's like you were addicted to her punishment,
her lies entangled you until you became intangible to me.
She kept you from me when you were mere inches away from me
she kept you from me even when you were dying to
feel me
hug me,
touch me,
kiss me…
But now it's seems like my prayers were answered
cause she's out of the picture.
She's fixed her lips to spew lies to you for the last time
But I…
am still on the side lines…
and it's killing me watching you hurt
killing me knowing that I can't comfort you.
I miss you,
wish that you were here
wish that you would let me treat you the way you need to be
wish that you would just let me in.
I'm dying to love you,
waiting for you to realize that I'm still here
And I'm never
going
no where.